Theodore Shoebat has written an excellent article about how the sodomites have now desensitized societies all over the world to the evils of homosexuality. It was an eye opening article for me. God is somehow using it to change me.
After a bit of a wrestling match with the LORD…I plan to document my changes. I’m calling it The Epistle of a Three Year Old Girl.
I work for a lumber mill down the road from my home. It’s honest work…Physical work…Steady pay. The job that I have been doing, oh I’d say ninty percent of the time, over the past two years is called tilt hoist operator. I will not go into detail about what I do as a hoist operator except to say, I’m pretty much up there alone most of the day. But God is there and we have conversation.
“I wanted to express my outrage about a man raping a three year old little girl to death LORD.” I replied.
“Gary why did you want to know the little girls name” God asked.
“Because I wanted her to be remembered” I replied.
God was silent and I became worried.
Then I began to cry.
God said “Stand up, be a man and answer my question Gary”
Then I became silent. I started thinking to myself…”When God asks a question, doesn’t he already know the answer?” Then I began asking myself God’s question…thinking to myself “I’ve got to search my heart and be honest.”
After a while I said”LORD?”
The LORD replied “Yes Gary?”
“What do you want people to believe that you are Gary?” The LORD asked.
“A strong Christian…A rock.” I replied.
Are you a rock Gary? The LORD asked?
“No, I’m no rock LORD” I replied.
The LORD said “What are you Gary”
I replied “A lump of clay LORD…Very unstable”
God said “I am going to conform you to the Man I want you to be. It will not always be pleasant so don’t you give up.”
I experienced joy and peace that I can’t explain with words.
I paused for a moment and said “LORD, after you conform me do I have to go into an oven?”
There was a man of the Pharisees, named Nicodemus, a ruler of the Jews: The same came to Jesus by night, and said unto him, Rabbi, we know that thou art a teacher come from God: for no man can do these miracles that thou doest, except God be with him. Jesus answered and said unto him, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born again, he cannot see the kingdom of God. Nicodemus saith unto him, How can a man be born when he is old? can he enter the second time into his mother’s womb, and be born? Jesus answered, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born of water and of the Spirit, he cannot enter into the kingdom of God. That which is born of the flesh is flesh; and that which is born of the Spirit is spirit. Marvel not that I said unto thee, Ye must be born again. The wind bloweth where it listeth, and thou hearest the sound thereof, but canst not tell whence it cometh, and whither it goeth: so is every one that is born of the Spirit. Nicodemus answered and said unto him, How can these things be? Jesus answered and said unto him, Art thou a master of Israel, and knowest not these things? Verily, verily, I say unto thee, We speak that we do know, and testify that we have seen; and ye receive not our witness. If I have told you earthly things, and ye believe not, how shall ye believe, if I tell you of heavenly things? And no man hath ascended up to heaven, but he that came down from heaven, even the Son of man which is in heaven. And as Moses lifted up the serpent in the wilderness, even so must the Son of man be lifted up: That whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have eternal life. For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life. For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved. He that believeth on him is not condemned: but he that believeth not is condemned already, because he hath not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God. And this is the condemnation, that light is come into the world, and men loved darkness rather than light, because their deeds were evil. For every one that doeth evil hateth the light, neither cometh to the light, lest his deeds should be reproved. But he that doeth truth cometh to the light, that his deeds may be made manifest, that they are wrought in God. After these things came Jesus and his disciples into the land of Judaea; and there he tarried with them, and baptized. And John also was baptizing in Aenon near to Salim, because there was much water there: and they came, and were baptized. For John was not yet cast into prison. Then there arose a question between some of John’s disciples and the Jews about purifying. And they came unto John, and said unto him, Rabbi, he that was with thee beyond Jordan, to whom thou barest witness, behold, the same baptizeth, and all men come to him. John answered and said, A man can receive nothing, except it be given him from heaven. Ye yourselves bear me witness, that I said, I am not the Christ, but that I am sent before him. He that hath the bride is the bridegroom: but the friend of the bridegroom, which standeth and heareth him, rejoiceth greatly because of the bridegroom’s voice: this my joy therefore is fulfilled. He must increase, but I must decrease. He that cometh from above is above all: he that is of the earth is earthly, and speaketh of the earth: he that cometh from heaven is above all. And what he hath seen and heard, that he testifieth; and no man receiveth his testimony. He that hath received his testimony hath set to his seal that God is true. For he whom God hath sent speaketh the words of God: for God giveth not the Spirit by measure unto him. The Father loveth the Son, and hath given all things into his hand. He that believeth on the Son hath everlasting life: and he that believeth not the Son shall not see life; but the wrath of God abideth on him.
I went to bed uneasy last night…Tossing and turning…Mind racing. “LORD, they’re gonna think I’m crazy. They’re gonna be disopointed with me. They’re not going to believe that it is You talking with me!” I said.
“What do you believe Gary? And why do you believe it? The LORD asked.
I began repeating the questions to myself…over and over again. “What do you believe? Why do you believe it? What do you believe? Why do you believe it? What do you believe? Why do you believe it?”
Finally I fell into a deep sleep. I woke up the next morning refreshed with the questions forefront on my mind. “What do you believe? Why do you believe it?”
I arrived to work with assurance God was going to teach me what I believe and why I believe it.
Busy at work with the hoist the LORD asked “Gary, how are you going to know what you believe and why you believe it?
“By studying the Bible, LORD.” I replied.
“Do you believe I can use the Bible and everything around you?…Everything that I have created and made to help you know what you believe and why you believe it Gary?” God asked.
“I believe LORD.” I replied.
“Do you believe I can use the Bible and the story about a man convicted of raping and murdering a three-year-old girl, to help you know what you believe and why you believe it Gary?” God asked.
“I believe Lord.” I replied.
“Write about this Gary.” God said.
“Write about this. What do you mean, write about this. I can’t write!” I exclaimed.
“You have a website, write about this Gary.” God said.
“But what should I call it? I need a title. What should the title be LORD?” I asked.
“Call it, The Epistle of a Three Year Old Girl” God Said.
(A Psalm of praise.) Make a joyful noise unto the LORD, all ye lands. Serve the LORD with gladness: come before his presence with singing. Know ye that the LORD he is God: it is he that hath made us, and not we ourselves; we are his people, and the sheep of his pasture. Enter into his gates with thanksgiving, and into his courts with praise: be thankful unto him, and bless his name. For the LORD is good; his mercy is everlasting; and his truth endureth to all generations.
I was away from the hoist today, at home with my family.
God asked me. “What do you see when you read the story about a man convicted of raping and murdering a three-year-old girl Gary? What do you hear? What do you feel? What do you think? What do you remember? What do you believe? Tell Me…And write them down”
- What do I believe?
- What do I feel?
- What do I hear?
- What do I remember?
- What do I see?
- What do I think?
- I believe Jesus is LORD.
- I hear crying.
- I hear cursing.
- I hear Jesus.
- I feel after Jesus.
- I feel anger.
- I feel crowded.
- I feel greatful.
- I feel my infirmities.
- I feel remorse.
- I remember my Creator.
- I remember my past.
- I remember my Saviour.
- I remember promises.
- I see death.
- I see Jesus.
- I see murder.
- I see rape.
- I see the end result of sin.
- I see the guilty.
- I see the innocent.
- I think of the future
- I think God is holy
- I think of God’s judgement
- I think of Gods grace.
“Search into all that is on your list Gary. Over time you will add more. I will teach you.” God said.
“LORD, How do I search into these things? How will you teach me?”I asked.
“Study the Bible and other writtings. Consider everything that I have created and made. Listen to My Son JESUS and do what he says. Talk with Me all the time. Remember it will not always be pleasant. Understand you have an enemy. Let Me train you to fight. And watch for Me. The Holy Spirit will teach you. Gary” The LORD said.
“How long do I do this LORD” I asked.
The LORD said “Until you and everyone around you know what to believe and why to believe it”
There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit. For the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus hath made me free from the law of sin and death. For what the law could not do, in that it was weak through the flesh, God sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh, and for sin, condemned sin in the flesh: That the righteousness of the law might be fulfilled in us, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit. For they that are after the flesh do mind the things of the flesh; but they that are after the Spirit the things of the Spirit. For to be carnally minded is death; but to be spiritually minded is life and peace. Because the carnal mind is enmity against God: for it is not subject to the law of God, neither indeed can be. So then they that are in the flesh cannot please God. But ye are not in the flesh, but in the Spirit, if so be that the Spirit of God dwell in you. Now if any man have not the Spirit of Christ, he is none of his. And if Christ be in you, the body is dead because of sin; but the Spirit is life because of righteousness. But if the Spirit of him that raised up Jesus from the dead dwell in you, he that raised up Christ from the dead shall also quicken your mortal bodies by his Spirit that dwelleth in you. Therefore, brethren, we are debtors, not to the flesh, to live after the flesh. For if ye live after the flesh, ye shall die: but if ye through the Spirit do mortify the deeds of the body, ye shall live. For as many as are led by the Spirit of God, they are the sons of God. For ye have not received the spirit of bondage again to fear; but ye have received the Spirit of adoption, whereby we cry, Abba, Father. The Spirit itself beareth witness with our spirit, that we are the children of God: And if children, then heirs; heirs of God, and joint-heirs with Christ; if so be that we suffer with him, that we may be also glorified together. For I reckon that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us. For the earnest expectation of the creature waiteth for the manifestation of the sons of God. For the creature was made subject to vanity, not willingly, but by reason of him who hath subjected the same in hope, Because the creature itself also shall be delivered from the bondage of corruption into the glorious liberty of the children of God. For we know that the whole creation groaneth and travaileth in pain together until now. And not only they, but ourselves also, which have the firstfruits of the Spirit, even we ourselves groan within ourselves, waiting for the adoption, to wit, the redemption of our body. For we are saved by hope: but hope that is seen is not hope: for what a man seeth, why doth he yet hope for? But if we hope for that we see not, then do we with patience wait for it. Likewise the Spirit also helpeth our infirmities: for we know not what we should pray for as we ought: but the Spirit itself maketh intercession for us with groanings which cannot be uttered. And he that searcheth the hearts knoweth what is the mind of the Spirit, because he maketh intercession for the saints according to the will of God. And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose. For whom he did foreknow, he also did predestinate to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brethren. Moreover whom he did predestinate, them he also called: and whom he called, them he also justified: and whom he justified, them he also glorified. What shall we then say to these things? If God be for us, who can be against us? He that spared not his own Son, but delivered him up for us all, how shall he not with him also freely give us all things? Who shall lay any thing to the charge of God’s elect? It is God that justifieth. Who is he that condemneth? It is Christ that died, yea rather, that is risen again, who is even at the right hand of God, who also maketh intercession for us. Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? As it is written, For thy sake we are killed all the day long; we are accounted as sheep for the slaughter. Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us. For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Back up at the hoist today God asked “Gary, why do you think I ask questions?”
I said “LORD I have asked myself this same question for years. I mean, a person does not have to read the Bible a lot before coming across you asking someone a question. And I don’t believe that you are trying to gather information. God I believe you know all things, declaring the end from the beginning. I believe you want me to search my heart and be honest with you. I believe you are offering me an invitation to repent, LORD.”
God laughed and said “That’s good Gary, Please continue.”
Then I was quiet for a moment and remembered a part of a verse in the Old Testament and also a verse in the New Testament and said “thou desirest truth in the inward parts”. And “ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.” Then I said “Jesus is truth”…”You want Jesus in my inward parts” Then I started laughing and the LORD started laughing. Then I exclaimed “LORD, you are teaching me what I believe and why I believe it! God you are awesome. LORD I love you.”
God said “Gary, keep searching out the topic of Why I ask questions and the topic Truth. You will discover so much more. And keep asking questions. Just like you have been doing with the story about a man convicted of raping and murdering a three-year-old girl.. Keep writing down your questions and you answers. You will discover that you will start seeing and hearing things differently. Remember, I am conforming you to the image of my Son Jesus. I love you son.”
John Chapter 8
Jesus went unto the mount of Olives. And early in the morning he came again into the temple, and all the people came unto him; and he sat down, and taught them. And the scribes and Pharisees brought unto him a woman taken in adultery; and when they had set her in the midst, They say unto him, Master, this woman was taken in adultery, in the very act. Now Moses in the law commanded us, that such should be stoned: but what sayest thou? This they said, tempting him, that they might have to accuse him. But Jesus stooped down, and with his finger wrote on the ground, as though he heard them not. So when they continued asking him, he lifted up himself, and said unto them, He that is without sin among you, let him first cast a stone at her. And again he stooped down, and wrote on the ground. And they which heard it, being convicted by their own conscience, went out one by one, beginning at the eldest, even unto the last: and Jesus was left alone, and the woman standing in the midst. When Jesus had lifted up himself, and saw none but the woman, he said unto her, Woman, where are those thine accusers? hath no man condemned thee? She said, No man, Lord. And Jesus said unto her, Neither do I condemn thee: go, and sin no more. Then spake Jesus again unto them, saying, I am the light of the world: he that followeth me shall not walk in darkness, but shall have the light of life. The Pharisees therefore said unto him, Thou bearest record of thyself; thy record is not true. Jesus answered and said unto them, Though I bear record of myself, yet my record is true: for I know whence I came, and whither I go; but ye cannot tell whence I come, and whither I go. Ye judge after the flesh; I judge no man. And yet if I judge, my judgment is true: for I am not alone, but I and the Father that sent me. It is also written in your law, that the testimony of two men is true. I am one that bear witness of myself, and the Father that sent me beareth witness of me. Then said they unto him, Where is thy Father? Jesus answered, Ye neither know me, nor my Father: if ye had known me, ye should have known my Father also. These words spake Jesus in the treasury, as he taught in the temple: and no man laid hands on him; for his hour was not yet come. Then said Jesus again unto them, I go my way, and ye shall seek me, and shall die in your sins: whither I go, ye cannot come. Then said the Jews, Will he kill himself? because he saith, Whither I go, ye cannot come. And he said unto them, Ye are from beneath; I am from above: ye are of this world; I am not of this world. I said therefore unto you, that ye shall die in your sins: for if ye believe not that I am he, ye shall die in your sins. Then said they unto him, Who art thou? And Jesus saith unto them, Even the same that I said unto you from the beginning. I have many things to say and to judge of you: but he that sent me is true; and I speak to the world those things which I have heard of him. They understood not that he spake to them of the Father. Then said Jesus unto them, When ye have lifted up the Son of man, then shall ye know that I am he, and that I do nothing of myself; but as my Father hath taught me, I speak these things. And he that sent me is with me: the Father hath not left me alone; for I do always those things that please him. As he spake these words, many believed on him. Then said Jesus to those Jews which believed on him, If ye continue in my word, then are ye my disciples indeed; And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free. They answered him, We be Abraham’s seed, and were never in bondage to any man: how sayest thou, Ye shall be made free? Jesus answered them, Verily, verily, I say unto you, Whosoever committeth sin is the servant of sin. And the servant abideth not in the house for ever: but the Son abideth ever. If the Son therefore shall make you free, ye shall be free indeed. I know that ye are Abraham’s seed; but ye seek to kill me, because my word hath no place in you. I speak that which I have seen with my Father: and ye do that which ye have seen with your father. They answered and said unto him, Abraham is our father. Jesus saith unto them, If ye were Abraham’s children, ye would do the works of Abraham. But now ye seek to kill me, a man that hath told you the truth, which I have heard of God: this did not Abraham. Ye do the deeds of your father. Then said they to him, We be not born of fornication; we have one Father, even God. Jesus said unto them, If God were your Father, ye would love me: for I proceeded forth and came from God; neither came I of myself, but he sent me. Why do ye not understand my speech? even because ye cannot hear my word. Ye are of your father the devil, and the lusts of your father ye will do. He was a murderer from the beginning, and abode not in the truth, because there is no truth in him. When he speaketh a lie, he speaketh of his own: for he is a liar, and the father of it. And because I tell you the truth, ye believe me not. Which of you convinceth me of sin? And if I say the truth, why do ye not believe me? He that is of God heareth God’s words: ye therefore hear them not, because ye are not of God. Then answered the Jews, and said unto him, Say we not well that thou art a Samaritan, and hast a devil? Jesus answered, I have not a devil; but I honour my Father, and ye do dishonour me. And I seek not mine own glory: there is one that seeketh and judgeth. Verily, verily, I say unto you, If a man keep my saying, he shall never see death. Then said the Jews unto him, Now we know that thou hast a devil. Abraham is dead, and the prophets; and thou sayest, If a man keep my saying, he shall never taste of death. Art thou greater than our father Abraham, which is dead? and the prophets are dead: whom makest thou thyself? Jesus answered, If I honour myself, my honour is nothing: it is my Father that honoureth me; of whom ye say, that he is your God: Yet ye have not known him; but I know him: and if I should say, I know him not, I shall be a liar like unto you: but I know him, and keep his saying. Your father Abraham rejoiced to see my day: and he saw it, and was glad. Then said the Jews unto him, Thou art not yet fifty years old, and hast thou seen Abraham? Jesus said unto them, Verily, verily, I say unto you, Before Abraham was, I am. Then took they up stones to cast at him: but Jesus hid himself, and went out of the temple, going through the midst of them, and so passed by.